at the movies.

1. i saw "up" on friday ... simply marvelous. and just what i needed; life is it's own adventure. and i have to say that ellie reminded me and others of little courtney. definitely see this. definitely.

2. i also saw "the brother's bloom" this weekend. very delightful. very woody alleny. see it too.
3. this brings me to my next subject ... the broadway theaters on 3rd. i'm an avid movie lover and i quite enjoy seeing copious movies in the theaters, however, so many people today are completely disconcerned with respect that watching a movie in the theaters becomes like watching a movie in their own living room. all that texting and talking makes me crazy.
here's where the broadway comes in. its in the heart of salt lake {what's better than that?}, they show the "artsy" movies that don't come to big theaters {usually the better films}, and only movie lovers {people that don't talk or text during the film} go to this theater. its great.
so if you can't find a good movie to go to in the big theaters go to the broadway and be satisfied.
that's all.

splashing in some lovely puddles.

i'm reading a charming little book right now by sharon larsen. her story is a testimony that despite disappointments, or unfulfilled dreams, life can still be rich and rewarding if we relish all of life's experiences. read it.

it snowed today. again.

i feel all "soul-searchy" today. i always revert to writing when i'm like this. and it's usually around a time when something big is about to happen in my life. i found this out today while reading my journal. listen to this uber-sensitive courtney after she just saw "into the wild" {a great film}, also ignore any grammar errors or expletives, its my journal:

[i just watched this movie and feel like i identified with the character in some ways. i want to be "self-actualized". i want to know who i am. what i am. where i am going. i struggle with heavy shit like LOVE, DISAPPOINTMENT, REJECTION, HAPPINESS, PAIN, SORROW. what are these words? how have i felt these things? do i know what each feel like? its 2:30 and i just feel like crying for the pains of the world. i hate it when i get like this. anyways, i shouldn't have written now cause i'm all "feely". i feel it all. i feel it all. "happiness is only real when it's shared."]

whoa.

sorry to unload on you like this. but i'm moving on from an imperative point in my life in less than a month. i'm freakin'. more from said journal:

[i just feel like i can't deal with disappointment as well as i should be able to. and it cripples me. this is one of the truest statements i've heard in my life, "every plan is a tiny prayer to father time" {thank you ben gibbard} i make plans, i have dreams and hope and pray they are met, if not, i am disappointed. i feel like i'm not living life to the fullest and taking advantage of every breath god gives me and this causes a great disappointment: sorrow. i wanted to have a marvelous college experience, i wanted to be a school counselor or therapist, i wanted to work at a group home. i wanted to move to new york, be a chef, serve a mission . . . not to say these things haven't played out or still cannot be, but it is because they haven't gone the way i thought, that i sorrow.
i make this "prayer to father time" and hope that my final year in college year goes well . . . i hope to feel i am doing the right thing with my life after college, whether that means moving to new york or not . . . but if not.]

that's basically how i'm feeling right now. and i hope it wasn't inappropriate to share.

loves.